Sunday, 12 August 2012

• But even the sun sets in paradise.

  It's the worst feeling in the world to love and hate someone all at the same time. And it's hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It's funny but stupid how you want everything and nothing at the same time. It's crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on. And when you want to move on, but you're stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go and you can't decide what you want. When you have so many things to say but you don't know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them farther and farther away. It's so hard to think back to how things used to be and look at it now and realize that things are different and they may never be the same. You tell yourself it's not worth it, but if it really didn't matter, you wouldn't spend so much time thinking about it.

  I don't even know you anymore. We're barely friends; we used to be lovers. I remember when I was all that you were living for.

  
  
  
  
  
  
  I don't think feelings change, nor people. I think situations change. I know that it's possible to dislike someone after loving them so much or to love someone after feeling so much hate towards them but, it's not because people change, it's because it's not the same anymore. It's because something made you think differently, something opened your eyes, something caused you to see everyday the way it is at last. It's like days. Days can be cloudy, or days can be sunny but days don't change, the weather does. And nothing can play a part in that or fix that, they can just let it be. 
  
  
  
  One of the hardest decisions you will ever make is whether to stay and try harder or take your memories and walk away.
  
  
  
  There are things that used to make me laugh but now they're deeply buried in the past. Remember when I said I loved you? Well, forget it, I take it back. I was just a stupid kid back then.

  
  
  Never chase love, affection, or attention. If it isn't given freely by another person, it isn't worth having.
  
  
  
  I find it really hard to accept that some things in life will never go back to the way it used to be, and all I can do is think about it all the time, wishing I could relive it. When I close my eyes, I think about all the good times we had, but it's all in the past and I can never get it back. I loved those days and I miss them so much. It hurts to know that those memories will always stay in my mind no matter what I do, but I know it's impossible to go back
  
  
  
   A goodbye isn't painful unless you know you're never going to say hello again.
  
  
  
  True love? I used to believe it exsisted, but when you've had your heart torn and thrown on the flow, you just don't care anymore.
  
  
  
  Trying to fall asleep while a million different things are running through my mind.
  
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  I’m so sick of the hook ups, the set-ups, the fuck-ups, the guy who only wants one thing, the guy who doesn’t know what he wants, the guy who does; but won’t admit it. I just want the real thing, and I want it to stick. I don’t want these doubts, these worries. I want a guy who won’t always be so unsure of me, of us. It’s like, they need time to decide. It’s as if they’re looking for something in particular and later on they realize they were looking for you.

  
  
  Love is for idiots. It's for the people who are stupid enough to put their guard down & let someone in. Love is about risk; the fact that it may or may not work out, that it may end in heartbreak. Love is about trusting, such a dumb thing to do. Love is for the hopeful, the hopeless. Love is for the strong.

  
  
   I know you don't believe it, but you will move on. You will laugh again, you will smile again & you will be happy again. You will try again, you will want again & you will love again. & you will be loved in return.
  
  
  
  I do not hate you, and have never hated you. I was angry at you and
  depressed by you and confused about you. But hate... hate never came into it.
  
  
  
  i shouldn't still feel like this. not after this much time.. you shouldn't be able to affect me this much. i shouldn't catch myself constantly drifting off, daydreaming about what was and replaying all the old memories. little things said or done shouldn't still remind me of what used to be.. you shouldn't be all i think about. not after this constant hurt. not after all this time.. but boy, i have a feeling you're going to be the one i compare everyone to from now on..  
  
  
  
  I want you to think for a second, I know, not something you're good at. But just take a second. Think, did you treat me right? Did you lie to me, again & again & again? Did you leave me when I needed you most? Were you destructive & manipulative? Answer those & you'll realize why I'm gone.
  
  
  
   I may not have loved you the way you wanted me to, but I sure as hell loved you with all I had.

  
  
  Oh don't tell me it was a mistake. Don't tell me you regret it, that you wish it had never happened. Never say you didn't mean to & don't tell me that if you could go back in time & change it, you would. Don't say you're sorry. Don't say you'll do anything to make it better. Don't you dare. Because at one point, that was exactly what you wanted.
  
  
  
   Do I regret letting you in? Not exactly. Do I regret telling you my secrets? Never. Do I regret telling you my problems? No. Do I regret loving you? I would never. Do I regret believing you? Always.
  
  
  
   Let go when you're hurting too much,
  give up when love isn't enough, and
  move on when things aren't like before. 
   because surely there is someone that will love you more.
  
  
  
  Consider me a memory, consider me the past. Consider me a smile in an old photograph, someone who used to make you laugh...
  
  
  
  She's strong because she knows what it's like to be weak.
  She keeps her guard because she knows what it's like
   to cry yourself to sleep.

  
  
   You had me at hello, lost me at goodbye, 
  and everything in between, I guess was a lie.
  
  
  
   I'm slamming the door of my life in your face. I hope it hurts like hell,
  because when you come back, and I know you will, you won't
   be able to get through. I'm locking the door and destroying the key,  
  because, well, you did the same damn thing to me.
  
  
  
  Why do we miss a person? It's either because we realize that we never treasured the moments when they were always there and it left us wishing we could turn back time again. Or we were too happy with them, we enjoyed every single moment, that we became so used to the idea of having them around.

  
  
   It's weird how one day you feel you'll never be able to live your life without him, and then the next day you’re doing exactly that.
  
  
  
  Sometimes you need to be alone. Sometimesyou just don't want to be comforted because you need the chance to take it in. All that has been, all the pain left behind. The best cure is time on your own to analyze, time to pull yourself together again, and time to see that all you ever wanted is now nothing but a fading memory. Time to let it go and time to start again.

  
  
  I'm not going to delete you from my life. I'm going to leave you there, so you can see how happy I am without you.
  
  
  
  it takes a lot of strength to realize that you better off without him.
  it takes a lot of will power to fully let go.
  but after you do, you gain so much self respect and independence.
  being on your own in this world can deffentally be a challenge.
  especially when you used to having that person there whenever you need them,
  whenever you needed a shoulder to cry on
  or some advice.
  it feels like your almost lost, but knowing that they are happy,
  and content not being with you.
  deffentally makes you realize that you should dig up some inner strength and move on.
  knowing that they are happier with someone else deffentally hurts.. and will continue to hurt.
  but seeing that smile on their face puts a smile on yours.
  yes, maybe you guys wont be friends right away,
  maybe not even aquantiances.
  but one day you will either fall in love all over again,
  or you will have one of the best friendships in the world.
  thats all i can hope for us
  your one of my bestfriends.
  i just.. cant know you right now.. not when im going through this constant pain.
  just promise you will remain a stranger until further notice.
  i love you, and i will continue to love you.
  i just need time... a lot of time.
  to become me again..
  i just need to focus on me.
  thanks.
  
  
  
  Realize now that when your heart breaks, you got to fight like hell to make sure your still alive. Because you are. And that pain you feel?That's life. The confusion and fear? That's there to remind you, that somewhere out there is something better, and that something is worth fighting for.
  
  
  
  Day 1: Your Favorite song. Day 2: Your favorite movie. Day 3: Your favorite television program. Day 4: Your favorite quote. Day 5: Your favorite book.Day 6: Your favorite music video. Day 7: A photo that makes you happy. Day 8: Describe the style you had 10 years ago. Day 9: A photo you took. Day 10: Talk about a regret you have. Day 11: Share a story from your childhood. Day 12: Explain how you got one of you scars. Day 13: How do you think other's view you? Day 14: Talk about the cuteness of your pets. Day 15: A poem you wrote. Day 16: A song that makes you cry. Day 17: An art piece that fascinates you. Say 18: Your best friend. Day 19: A talent you possess. Day 20: A hobby of yours. Day 21: A recipe you've been dying to try. Day 22: Your deepest fear. Day 23: Write a love letter to yourself. Day 24: Reveal your most guilty pleasure. Day 25: Talk about a tattoo you have, want, or why you would never get one. Day 26: Talk about your last 'Random act of Kindness" you encountered. Day 27: The last thing that made you cry. Day 28: Say something to your 15 year old self. Day 29: Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days. Day 30: Share what you have learned about yourself in the last 30 days.
  
  I don;t really have a favorite music video. it's the song that gets me, not the video.
  
  
  

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