Sunday, 30 September 2012

  • I told you I'd run away. I just didn't expect you to let me.

    Life doesn't hurt until you think about, how much things have changed. Who you've lost along the way, and how much of it was your fault. What you have. Because it could turn into what you had. Nobody ever realizes what they have; you should cherish everything before it's gone. You never know what you have until you lose it and once you lose it, you can never get it back

     It's not about how many times you had my back. It's about the one time you stabbed it.






    Sorry, but it has to be said, get your head out of your ass & wake up! You need to move on girl. You've passed numerous one year milestones & the last two are coming up; it's time for you to move on. It's time for you to get over him. I know you loved him, but you were young. Yes he was your first love, but he is not your last! This was a high school romance, tiny and insignificant in comparison to the rest of your life. You will love again sweetheart, & it will be amazing. You may love multiple times after this, who knows? This is not the end, this is merely the beginning. He taught you a lot about yourself, other people, and life. This love was not pointless, no love ever is. He will be happy, don't worry 'bout him. He will find someone that is perfect for him in every way you couldn't be and vise versa. This was a high school romance & it is over. So yesterday. It's time to forgive & forget darling. Forget shit & move on. This was not the love of a lifetime, this was the very beginning of a lifetime of love.



    You know what I love the most about us? I love how comfortable we are with each other. I love how we endlessly pick on each other, but we never take the teasing to heart. I love how you laugh like a little boy when I tickle you. I absolutely adore how when I walk away from you when we are fighting, you try and stay mad, but.. then you run after me. I love you and everything about you. The look in your eyes when we kiss or how you stay up watching me sleep. I love how I can call you anytime I need to and somehow you never cease to make me laugh. I love how you need me as much as I need you. I love how you love me. I love you.



    You wrapped your arms around me, pressing your body against mine. And in that moment of perfection, I knew we were meant to be. I never wanted you to let go.



     "Giving someone a second chance is like giving them another bullet for their gun, because they missed you the first time."



     When I think of him, it hurts. & not in a 'oh I love him & he's not here' hurt, but a 'stop that' hurt. Like my body is physically helping me stop thinking about him. It's funny how your body can show you exactly what you need. 

    You said you loved me, I believed you. You said you'd never leave me, I believed you. But before I could realize you were lying, you were already gone.



    Saying goodbye is easy, it's just a word. But when the person leaves & it dawns on you that they're never coming back? Now that's the hard part.

     I believe that two people are connected at heart. And it doesn't matter what you do, or who you are, or where you live. There are no boundaries or barriers if two people are destined to be together.



     You don't have to learn to control your thoughts,

    you have to learn to not let your thoughts control you.



    It’s better to have people think you’re happy. Then they shut their mouths and don’t ask questions.



    This goes out to all of the people who have been broken but have been 
    strong enough to let go. For the people who have hurt so badly that they
    felt they could never love again, but kept their head up. For those who
    feel like going back to their old lover would put all the pieces back where 
    they belong and everything would fit, but accept the cold hard truth instead. 
    For the people that learn from their mistakes and never stop moving forward, 
    even when they take two steps back. For the people that wish loneliness wasn’t 
    a part of them, but put up with it anyhow. For the people that are okay with
     taking up all of the room in the bed, even if sometimes it feels a little
    empty. For the people who wake up in the morning with no missed calls, but
    smile anyway. For the people that periodically miss the past, but are so much
    more excited for the future. For the people that have wounds still healing.
    For the people that have so much tied to their past relationship, but break
    those chains to start fresh. For the people that want to look back so badly, 
    but focus on the road ahead. For the people that pick up the phone so tempted
    to call, but keep their dignity in tact instead. For the people that never
    wanted to let go, but had to. For the people that still believe in love even 
    after all of the hurt their heart has endured. For all the people that gave 
    up not because they were weak, but because most times it’s better just
     to let go. We’ll get our happy ending someday.



    “You’ll never understand how much I love you, and I’ll never understand why”



    I won’t fight to stay when all you want for me to do is leave. 
    I’m not going to miss you when you don’t miss me. I’m not going to
     care when you don’t at all. I’m not going to try anymore. You’ve kept
     my hopes up for much too long. It’s time I start thinking about myself 
    again and not you. It’s time I be strong. It’s time I let you go.
     It’s about time I be happy. It’s about time I stop chasing you.



     I think sometimes you have to lose someone completely before you can figure out what they really mean to you.




     When life blows sometimes the best thing you can be is a dick.



     You talked to me. I smiled. I laughed and everything I've ever hated about you was forgotten in an instant.



    If you fight like a married couple, talk like best friends, flirt like a first love, protect each other like siblings, it's meant to be.



    You haven't lost your smile. It's right under your nose. You just forgot it was there.



    Realize now that when your heart breaks, you got to fight like hell to make sure you're still alive. Because you are. And that pain you feel? That's life. The confusion and fear? That's there to remind you, that somewhere out there is something better, and that something is worth fighting for.



    Sometimes i feel like i have a sign on my back that says "Break my heart"



    There' something a quote does that nothing and no one else can ever do; it can become a part of you, you may never meet, or even know who wrote your life down in their own words, but that person is your companion. Quotes help you get over pain, feel loved, make you smile or even laugh, on those tough days and to think you started thinking no one knew what you were going through.



     “Trying to forget someone you loved is like trying to remember someone you never knew”



    There is nothing like that first boy you were so afraid to lose, the one boy that changed your expectations and the one that you compare all the future boys in your life to, because deep down inside you know that he was the one that set the standard for love. 



     If someone makes you happy, then the rest shouldn't even matter.



    Love isn't an act. It's a whole life. It's staying with her now because she needs you; it's knowing you and she will still care about each other when sex and daydreams, fights and futures- when all that's on the shelf and done with. Love-why, I'll tell you what love is: it's you at 75 and her at 71, each of you listening for the other's step in the next room, each afraid that a sudden silence, a sudden cry, could mean a lifetime's talk is over.



    someone once said, always listen to your heart because even though
     it's on your left, its always right



    Once you have feelings for someone, those feelings will always be there. You may not like them, but you'll still care.



    It’s time to change my story, tired of repeating the same
    chapter...done...I’m over with it and with you.



     You're the only person that ever made me feel anything, really feel. Even if it wasn't always the best feelings, you're the only one who could make me smile or tear me down in three seconds flat. You're the only person that can drive me crazy, in both good and bad ways. You're the only person that ever made me feel like I didn't have to try so hard. And I know that you're not okay without me either, or you wouldn't talk about such things as you do. I just wish you knew I still loved you, and I wish you would do something with that knowledge.



    If anyone asks, I'll tell them we both just moved on. When people all stare I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk. Whenever I see you, I'll swallow my pride and bite my tongue, pretend I'm okay with it all, act like there's nothing wrong.



    Just quit sending me mixed signals, stop with the mind games and tell me how you really feel.



    Love isn’t about the romantic nights or gifts. It isn’t about fireworks going off around you when you have that first, real, kiss. Love isn’t about kissing in the rain and dancing beneath the stars. It isn’t about the big moments or the big surprises. Love is not a fairy-tale. Love is about still having the butterflies after years. It’s about the second looks and lying in bed wide awake, all night, because you can’t go to sleep mad at each other. It’s about being willing to sacrifice, literally, everything for someone, just because you care so deeply for them. It’s not about buying them gifts, but it’s about leaving them little presents here and there, just to remind them that you are constantly thinking about them. Love is about all of the little things that add up to really big things. Love is rare and special, but should not be treated as if it will break. Love needs to be thrown around and beat up a little bit, worn in, but not worn down. Love needs to be a comfortable feeling, a place to go when NO ONE else in the world can relate. A safe place, where you know that no matter how ugly you look or how angry you are, you will still be… loved. 



    You and I will always be unfinished business.



    I say I'm over him but am I really? Of course not, he was the boy that I got butterflies in my stomach when I saw him. The boy I waited for to come online, the boy that if he smiled at me, nothing else could bring me down. But he is also the boy that didn't love me back. So if anyone asks, I'll just say, "Oh him?He was nothing." When he was everything and more.



    “Don’t be flattered that he misses you. He should miss you. You are deeply missable. However, he’s still the same person who just broke up with you. Remember, the only reason he can miss you is because he’s choosing, every day, not to be with you.” 



    If he’s not calling you, it’s because you are not on his mind. If he creates expectations for you, and then doesn’t follow through on little things, he will do same for big things. Be aware of this and realize that he’s okay with disappointing you. Don’t be with someone who doesn’t do what they say they’re going to do. If he’s choosing not to make a simple effort that would put you at ease and bring harmony to a recurring fight, then he doesn’t respect your feelings and needs. “Busy” is another word for “asshole.” “Asshole” is another word for the guy you’re dating. You deserve a fucking phone call.” 



    It's like there's so much to say, but not enough time to say it. My heart is beating just for you, and I don't think you understand that. I miss you the second you slip out of my sight. I want you to love me. Only me. I need you to grab my hand in the hall, kiss me on the forehead, and just love me for the moody, outgoing, crazy son of a gun that I am. I'm not asking for much.. Just a guy that will care. A guy that will open doors, always take the bill, and surprise me with flowers for no reason at all. I want you to prove to me that all guys aren't the same. That they have hearts, and they cry over losing the one they love, even if they don't want anyone to know. I just want you. I've always wanted you.



    i don't want you to save me. 
    i want you to stand by my side as i save myself.



     “If the guy you’re dating doesn’t seem to be completely into you, or you feel the need to start ‘figuring him out,’ please consider the glorious thought that he might just not be that into you. And then free yourself to go find someone that is.” 

    Day 1: Your Favorite song. Day 2: Your favorite movie. Day 3: Your favorite television program. Day 4: Your favorite quote. Day 5: Your favorite book.Day 6: Your favorite music video. Day 7: A photo that makes you happy. Day 8: Describe the style you had 10 years ago. Day 9: A photo you took. Day 10: Talk about a regret you have. Day 11: Share a story from your childhood. Day 12: Explain how you got one of you scars. Day 13: How do you think other's view you? Day 14: Talk about the cuteness of your pets. Day 15: A poem you wrote. Day 16: A song that makes you cry. Day 17: An art piece that fascinates you. Say 18: Your best friend. Day 19: A talent you possess. Day 20: A hobby of yours. Day 21: A recipe you've been dying to try. Day 22: Your deepest fear. Day 23: Write a love letter to yourself. Day 24: Reveal your most guilty pleasure. Day 25: Talk about a tattoo you have, want, or why you would never get one. Day 26: Talk about your last 'Random act of Kindness" you encountered. Day 27: The last thing that made you cry. Day 28: Say something to your 15 year old self. Day 29: Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days. Day 30: Share what you have learned about yourself in the last 30 days.



    I always say: Never regret anything because at one point it was exactly what you wanted. But if I think that there are a few things I do regret. Because of things I've said and done; I've lost people. And I do regret that, I do regret that i say that, and did that.. but at some point.. I was done chasing. I think sometimes you have to let someone walk away, even though you want them to stay. So yes, I prefer to see things different but things happen and all I can do is move on and don't look back. I can't change the past and if this is the way it's meant to be, than I'll accept that. 

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